Beautiful Flower

When I started this blog, I started it because it was a way for me to talk about my feelings and to document my life changes,a sort of diary to share. I used to have a blog that was sort of more my venting blog back when I was not as happy as I am now. These days I find myself at peace and happier than I have been in a really long time. It never once occurred to me that the person who was at the root of my unhappiness back then would never see this, I mean after all it is the internet where things are meant to be found. With that being said it finally happened after years of writing my blog that that person happened to come across it and proceeded to tell me about it in a voice mail. As I sat through the two minute voice mail I was taken back to all the times he used to leave me messages that would make me crazy and then I just laughed. I no longer have to listen to those voice mails and follow it up with an argument when I get home. Gone are the days of my "All kinds of crazy" blog and I've replaced it with Totally Tembi. The differences in the two are that I am happy now and you can see it in my blog. I don't have to mention him in my life anymore because he is no longer a part of my life so when he leaves the question on my voice mail "Am I just a ghost" I would reply basically yes. We share two things in life those being our kids and unless there is something we need to discuss about them, I don't need to hear from him and technically when our daughter turns 18 in July I won't ever need to hear from him since they are at the age where they are both adults and can make their own decisions about their relationship with him. He had a few words about the fact that i'm excited about my upcoming marriage and talk about it a lot on my blog...yes, because it's true! I am getting married to the person I believe is my soulmate and I love him so much. I will never apologize for it nor do I have to. I have come a long way from being that sad little girl who was once so easy for him to feel like he could control and I'm proud of it. I'm at my very best point in my life right now and my words reflect it. I'm glad he found my blog because now he can see what a beautiful flower I have blossomed into without him ever again.