Don't hate us...they're coming soon...

As you may know by my continuous postings of wedding photos and countdown for the last year, I got married in July. What a beautiful ad happy day it was. We planned so much for about a year and then it was gone too fast. Good thing there are pictures and a video so that I can remember our beautiful day. That was now almost a half a year ago and I have a confession...I still haven't sent out the thank you cards. I know what you're thinking,I am totally awful,right? I have them all written out and I have excuse that I do still need some addresses. I know, you're probably right um, shouldn't you have those addresses from when you sent the invitations? I would answer no. We sent out so many invitations, some at my house, some other places. My point is I need addresses...and stamps. I started to think we still had time. I truly thought the etiquette was that we had a year...but I was wrong...it was 3 to 4 months. Oh no I thought....I'm past due...people are going to hate us! So then I thought...Christmas cards. Why not send the thank you notes with Christmas cards so we could accomplish two tasks at once...good idea right...oh no I still need addresses! It's a goal I have to get this to happen, but now Christmas is so close...can I do it? So I would ask my FB friends and family, if you were at my wedding and are still waiting on a thank you note, please don't hate us...it's coming soon....hopefully by Christmas...and before Valentine's day. Cross your fingers!

30....29...

Okay now were down to the wire....30 days left until we hear wedding bells. Its funny because I have a countdown clock on my phone and it updates the day everyday at 5:00 pm. I go to work with one number and I come back with another. Today I left with it being 30 and at 5 its 29. Wow, can you believe it? It seems as if I've been on my wedding day countdown forever, maybe I have. Many of you who know me know my upcoming marriage is my second marriage, and im here to tell you it will be my last. Everything that makes me feel bridal right now I've never felt before. This feels like my first time. I never had the beautiful white gown, a wedding party of 25, flower girl, ring bearer, real flowers. I find myself giddy and excited and incredibly happy and in love. This is the man I was meant to be with, I truly believe he's my soul mate. We met 2 1/2 years ago and were as much in love as we were then, even more. So here on this 30th soon to be 29th day of my wedding countdown I can barely think of anything else. Please forgive me for my wedding posts and pictures. Im sure you all get tired of them but what can I say...im marrying the man of my dreams and that makes me the luckiest girl in my world!

49 Days Left

As I write this I am looking around thinking of all I have to do before our big day. At the end of next week we're having a Graduation Open House for Adri. Yes, she's finally done with school, she worked hard and pulled it off, just like I knew she could. Lots to do in June...graduations, birthdays, bachelor parties, bridal showers and checklists. I have mental checklists, checklists in my wedding binder and though I'm getting closer to checking things off, there are all the little things I need to do. We get response cards in the mail now pretty much every day, its exciting and me and Miji open them up together to see who's coming. I had my final dress fitting last week and it was amazing. I cant wait to wear it as I walk down the aisle to my Miji. There's wedding rehearsal, honeymoon planning and just so many details to pull together. I haven't really had too many bridezilla moments but I'm sure as the time continues to fly by, I might! So 49 days...let's do this!

Beautiful Flower

When I started this blog, I started it because it was a way for me to talk about my feelings and to document my life changes,a sort of diary to share. I used to have a blog that was sort of more my venting blog back when I was not as happy as I am now. These days I find myself at peace and happier than I have been in a really long time. It never once occurred to me that the person who was at the root of my unhappiness back then would never see this, I mean after all it is the internet where things are meant to be found. With that being said it finally happened after years of writing my blog that that person happened to come across it and proceeded to tell me about it in a voice mail. As I sat through the two minute voice mail I was taken back to all the times he used to leave me messages that would make me crazy and then I just laughed. I no longer have to listen to those voice mails and follow it up with an argument when I get home. Gone are the days of my "All kinds of crazy" blog and I've replaced it with Totally Tembi. The differences in the two are that I am happy now and you can see it in my blog. I don't have to mention him in my life anymore because he is no longer a part of my life so when he leaves the question on my voice mail "Am I just a ghost" I would reply basically yes. We share two things in life those being our kids and unless there is something we need to discuss about them, I don't need to hear from him and technically when our daughter turns 18 in July I won't ever need to hear from him since they are at the age where they are both adults and can make their own decisions about their relationship with him. He had a few words about the fact that i'm excited about my upcoming marriage and talk about it a lot on my blog...yes, because it's true! I am getting married to the person I believe is my soulmate and I love him so much. I will never apologize for it nor do I have to. I have come a long way from being that sad little girl who was once so easy for him to feel like he could control and I'm proud of it. I'm at my very best point in my life right now and my words reflect it. I'm glad he found my blog because now he can see what a beautiful flower I have blossomed into without him ever again.