A few days ago marked the day when me and Miji had our first date a year ago. We had met on Match.Com and texted and talked on the phone for a little more than a week before we decided to meet. We had our first date at Macaroni Grill and it was perfect. We drew pictures with crayons on the paper tablecloth they give you, we flirted and we shared appetizers. He even let me double dip on the cheese sauce, I knew he was a keeper right then! It seemed like we were there for hours but neither of us wanted the date to end. We walked around Bev-Mo looking at wine and then followed it up for Happy Hour in Highland as we listened to music on the patio of a mexican restaurant.
There was this ease we had with each other where everything just flowed and it was effortless and so natural. Now here we are, a year later. Him and I and the kids live together and that ease and naturalness is still so evident. Every morning I wake up with him nestled beside me with his arm around my waist. I am so warm and comfortable that I don't even want to get out of bed most of the time...but when I do, he says " I Love You".
I remember driving with him to that mexican restaurant on our first date as I was in the passenger seat. I remember looking over at him and thinking of how awesome he was and how I hoped that passenger seat would become mine as we rode together through life. And here I am.
After so many years in a bad and unhappy marriage I have found this person who has kept me grounded when I thought I would fall. He has given me his shoulder to cry on, his hand to hold and his smile to keep me going. He is what I needed for so very long. I remember how every night I would go outside late at night to make sure things were locked up and I would just gaze at the stars and the moon and just pray to God that he would send me someone who loved me the way I always wanted to be loved, someone who would need me the way I wanted to be needed. There were times I almost gave up and threw in the towel thinking that love is what happened to other people-not me. Thank God I didn't give up or else I would have never found him. I tell him he rescued me, he tells me I rescued him right back.
Sometimes Adri will tell us we are so cute together that it makes her jealous and I tell her that she will find love some day, after all it took me and Miji 40 years to find each other! I remember being younger, a teenager in fact, when I went through my share of heartaches over boys. My mom would always tell me that one day I was going to find the man of my dreams but I had to sift through some of the bad ones first because that's just life. She was so right. I have found the man of my dreams and it's my Miji. Last night I thought about what my mom told me as Miji and I were consoling Adri about some boy who broke her heart (ugh!). I told her that same thing that my mother had told me and I know she didn't believe it but I am sure she will one day as she finds the man of her dreams.
I look back to where I was a year ago and I feel truly blessed. I overcame a lot of obstacles this past year and alot of guys would not have given of themselves to be there with me and for me the way he has. I feel like I have a partner in life now, someone who is there for me to help me get through where as before I felt so alone and as if I had a third child. I remember filing for a divorce and calling my mom and telling her how scared I was of the future, wondering if I could make it on my own. She told me that one day I would look back and wonder why I didn't do it sooner and she assured me that I was going to be just fine. Why is it that mothers are always right? I know my mom is reading this-she is my biggest fan so I have to tell you thank you mom-love you so much.
So where am I going with today's blog? Here it is-I just want to tell you all that you are the ones responsible for your own happiness. If you are in a situation where you aren't at peace or are unhappy-change it. I am here to tell you that with determination and faith that God will give you all the desires of your heart-don't give up- Find your Happily ever after...just like I did.
